I had a three hour conversation with myself this afternoon. From noon until sometime in the three o' clock hour I was conversing with myself cranially, mostly nonstop. It's not at all an unusual happening, but typically there are more interruptions, (a cat, a phone call, etc). I woke up in a very bad mood today so I spent most of the time ranting to myself about whatever was upsetting me, and I can't even remember what that was (I'm usually in a generally poor mood on Friday anyway because that's when I go back to work, so it could have just been the stress of everything going on lately). It wasn't until Stevie did something bad, so I said her name, which was the first thing I actually said to that point today, and it seemed really loud so I was taken aback.
I used to have to sleep with the TV on at my parents' because it would always be really quiet so I'd just talk to myself forever and the silence would get way too loud, so the TV provided a nice distraction to that.
I also do this all the time when I'm alone or when I feel alone, like at work when I'm just doing some mundane task. There have been a couple times when I get into a real pickle (again, usually at work) and I start saying "oh god, oh god, oh god" in my mind as the person is yelling at me and eventually the "oh god"s get louder than what they're actually saying and I can't hear them anymore, just this gang of my voices yelling different things, like "stop" "leave me alone" and other things that sound like a child rape case, which it isn't.
Does anyone else do this? Is this normal? Should I really be telling the world these things?
Also, yes, that was a Megadeth reference in the title of this blog. And no, I should NOT have revealed that.
